Life

You know those times when you do something, and then kick yourself for doing it later? Well, I am hoping this is NOT one of those times! It seems like everyone has a story each unique, yet all the same. The title of the story is......Life. We have good days and we have bad days, and there are even some great days in there, though rarely for most. Well herein begins my story, and my life!

I sit before you today jobless, but not hopeless. December 25th, 2009 I quit my job for a rather bizarre reason...... my family. My wife is working full time and going to school full time to try to better our lives, so, of course, I felt it my duty to quit my job! I was a driver for a medical supply company, made decent money for our area, and began questioning my purpose between those miles. I came to the conclusion that we were in some sort of a circle, where we work more, to spend more, to work more. The next beacon of truth that came upon me was the fact that we had a 14 year old boy with Autism(Asperger's Syndrome), an 11 year old girl who, quite frankly, is a ball of emotions anyway, another 11 year old girl who has not been allowed to be part of my life(but that's a whole other blog,) and a 9 year old boy with ADHD. Yet,we were letting them grow up without us to be viewed as "socially stable". I can tell you that not all agree with this decision, however; it was not one that was made for all. It seems as if being misunderstood is my greatest talent. I am actively looking for employment which meet our family's demands, and plan to start nursing school in the fall,(this will help out whenever my wife is in her last year of the PA program and can't work.) I am hoping that this blog will give those close to me understanding into my thoughts and actions, those not so close to me an insight into how a bi-polar mind can be stable and happy, and make others happy without any sort of treatment. Do not misunderstand, there are those who need a treatment plan, and the day may come when I am amongst that group. I am truly blessed to know that at this time my kids, my wife, and my God keep me productive and stable, though not without a lot of conscious effort. Most of all, this is to show my wife what a difference she has made in my life! I love you Marsha, and I will post for the rest of you, a different chapter from my story every blog. May you have a light heart, and God's richest blessings!